I Can Hear The Bells

For as long as I can remember, I've been planning my wedding. My colors, my bridesmaids, my dress, and my location. I've dreamed about engagement rings, I've even had a dream of walking down THE aisle in a white dress, only to not recognize the face of the person I was about to marry.

I grew up, like most girls/women my age, watching Disney movies. Cinderella, Beauty and the Beast... Thumbelina... Most of them had extremely happy endings, the girl gets the guy & everything works out. Evil is conquered.

It's so weird seeing my friends get married. It shocks me, and yet I've found it odd because I've decided some of it isn't really happening. Then, when I see my friends after they've been married, it's just like old times... Just now they both have rings on their fingers. At least for me, it's just like old times. Sometimes, it's not.

I went to a wedding two weekends ago for one of my marvelous sorority sisters who has been a core part of why I stayed in Auburn, stayed in my sorority, and blossomed into the person I am today. It was strange to see her get into her wedding gown, to watch her walk down the aisle, exchange vows, kiss her groom/husband, and kneel around her as we sang The Pat Song. I hadn't expected it to be like it was. The day went by so quickly. We cheered as her & her new husband walked to the car to drive to Huntsville. I remember thinking, "I really like her going away dress, I think I want one like that for me."

Most of us girls are obsessed with weddings. Getting there, going to one, dreaming of one, etc. We talk about qualities we want or admire in a guy, where we want to live when we get married, if we want pets, children. It's a lifelong goal most of us want to accomplish. The Bible almost literally says go forth & multiply. So let's do it.



It scares me. MY friends are proposing, throwing showers, getting married... And I'm going to France. I'm going to miss some of my best, best friend's huge moments because of my trip abroad to work. I don't want life to change, college was a big enough adjustment, real life is going to kill me.

Now, that doesn't mean I don't look at engagement rings & dresses & picture myself in them. But sometimes the actual commitment scares me to death.